I am going to lose weight.
It makes me nervous to put it out there, but there it is.
I am the sort of person who believes strongly in following through on what they say they are going to do. I have been trying to improve my eating habits for a long time now, but it seems that I back track very quickly. Usually I wake up in the morning committed to eating healthier and then give up by noon. Back in 2001 I lost 50 pounds so I know that I CAN do it. It is just a matter of getting started and building some momentum. And my theory is that if I put my goal out there, publicly I will be more committed to my effort.
I've always been a fat girl. Even when I lost weight I was still chubby or at least felt that way. When I lost weight in 2001, I was able to maintain it for a few years even. But then I started grad school and gain 20 pounds. And then I tried to get pregnant but couldn't and gained 20 pounds. Then I got pregnant and while I am near to my pre-pregnancy weight that is still nowhere near my ultimate goal.
I would like to lose weight to feel healthier. To set a good example for my daughter. To feel good about my body. To have more energy. I believe in losing weight at a healthy pace, and I've read enough to know all the things that I SHOULD do. It is just a matter of doing them. I do not have a specific weight loss goal at this point as this is not really about reaching a particular number. It is more about how I feel.
I'm starting in small steps because it is too much to make all the needed habit changes at once. That is what I always try to do and a big part of why I give up mid-day. Instead I am going to start by keeping a food journal and limiting myself to 1800 calories per day. I will probably lower that a little bit down the road but 1800 is a good place to start. As I get momentum I will try to add in exercise which is my biggest demon.
I know that I might backslide. But I've told you all I'm going to do this so I will. And I know I can.
So yeah you might have to hear about this from time to time. But I know I'm not the only fat girl on the planet so maybe some of you can relate.