Thursday, January 31, 2008
So is all this knitting helping to pass the time away? I don't know. I've gotten to the point where I count the amount of time until the ultrasound in terms of events. For example, I get together with my friend Jenny to watch American Idol every Tuesday. (Well really we're mostly gabbing, but whatever). So I've got just one AI night left before the ultrasound. The same thing with my knitting circle on Wednesday nights...just one circle left until the u/s. I also count by weekends, but sadly there are still two of those left. Hmmm. I am starting to wonder about my mental stability though, given that I can waste an entire paragraph discussing the measurement of time until my next ultrasound.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
I realize that those of you from colder climates scoff at the idea of a snow day with so little snow. But you haven't been to Seattle. The people here completely lose it at the slightest hint of the white fluffy stuff. Now you can blame this reaction on the hilly terrain, the lack of snow plows, or vehicles and drivers ill-equipped to deal with slippery streets. But I think the real problem is the local news. Those guys can fill an entire newscast with snow coverage, which they usually label with exciting names such as "Extreme Weather 2008" or "Icy Arctic Blast". In fact, they often extend their newscast to provide special coverage on the latest icy conditions. They'll station reporters at various spots throughout the Puget Sound Region to provide up to the minute reports on local conditions. There is video of cars sliding off the road or into ditches. Interviews with gleeful children enjoying the snow day. Important national or world events may be going on, but thanks to the all snow all the time news coverage we in Seattle will be ignorant of all this.
So despite my disappointment this morning, I figured that at least I would be spared the constant news stories. Unfortunately I was wrong. They sent one newscaster to Bellingham (basically the furthest north of Washington) in hopes of finding snow there. Instead all she found was rain despite the weatherman's assertions that the temperature there was 23 degrees. But nothing would deter the local newscasters from their snow coverage. They emphasized the dangers of snow mixed with rain. They spoke of convergence zones and reminded us that there may, somewhere, perhaps still be a pocket of snow left in the lowlands that had not come to their attention yet. They showed us picture after picture of the snow yesterday. They alerted viewers to check out the running tab of school delays and closures, although few districts listed much more than "limited bus transportation". They could be speaking of the State of the Union speech or the declining economy. But instead we got snow coverage minus the snow.
Soon winter will be over and then there will be spring floods to cover. Next will come summer heat waves when temperatures hit 80 or 90 degrees. Then the fall windstorms will sustain the local media until winter is once again upon us.
Well on other fronts in my household, Jeramy's stepdad got out of the hospital yesterday and is doing much better. It amazes me how cardiac care has reached a point where you can have a heart attack one day and then home and feeling much better 2 days later. And apparently "the growth" is still hanging out in my uterus although I have no symptoms to reassure me. But I've been checking my underwear for spotting incessantly and there has been nothing, which is a good sign I guess. The 2 weeks remaining until the ultrasound feel like an eternity at this point, especially given the turtle's pace of this last week. Operation keep Jen busy is obviously failing in its chief mission.
Monday, January 28, 2008
So that and a birthday party pretty much wiped Saturday out. Sunday Jeramy and I ran some errands and tried to lay low. Here are a couple pics of the better times from this weekend:
Jeramy helped our friends' son Ryan pain duck decoys at the Outdoor Sportsman show. Doesn't Jeramy look like he is having fun???
I started knitting a cardigan for the baby girl our friend Debbie is having in May. I absolutely adore the design which is from the Knitter's Almanac by Elizabeth Zimmerman so I was pretty excited to get started on it. It is knit from the top down and almost seamlessly. So what you are looking at is the neck and shoulders. The pattern itself takes a little getting used to as the instructions are a little lacking..."pithy" is the word the author used. The yarn I'm using is Rowan cotton/wool blend, which is very soft and much easier to work with than plain cotton. Plus it is machine washable, which is a must when knitting for babies.
Friday, January 25, 2008
Anyhow, for the past week or so, I've been having an on-again, off-again throbbing pain near my right ovary. Last night I woke up with it and couldn't fall back to sleep for an hour or so. So this morning I called the RE's office to get their opinion, and they told me to come on in for an ultrasound to check it out. It only turned out to be a pretty small cyst that looked to be draining. My doc said the draining could be causing the pain or it could simply be the uterus expanding. In any case, I felt like an idiot for coming in over nothing.
But I did get a sneak peak at what DH has termed "the growth". Obviously we need a better nickname. Anyhow we saw the gestational sac measuring about 5mm, which my doctor said was a good sign. From what I've found via google that is on par with what you'd expect around the 5 week mark. And since I'm somewhere between 4 weeks 4 days (if you count from LMP) and 4 weeks 6 days (if you count from the IUI) that is right on target.
Now back to the previously scheduled program...waiting. Just over two more weeks until the "real" ultrasound.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Any other ideas of names to avoid?
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
I also finished my first sock. It is not the best looking sock ever as I kept forgetting to knit through the back loop in the proper places. However at some point I realized that I had to press on despite the mistakes as I would never get it finished otherwise. I've now started on sock #2, and I'm about half way through the ribbing at the top. Let's just hope #2 doesn't take me 4 months like #1 did!
On the baby-growing front (as opposed to the baby-making front) I have noticed a little cramping today. It was a bit worrisome, but Dr. Google (I know I said I'd stay away, but it is just so hard!) says this is normal as the placenta is digging in to the uterine lining and setting up camp for the next 9 months. And since I'm determined not to drive myself crazy with nervousness, I'm doing my best to ignore any sensation below my waist and trying to distract myself with hobbies.
Monday, January 21, 2008
So I know in my last post I said that I was going in on Tuesday for the second beta. Well make that today. When the nurse called with the first beta result on Saturday she said I could come back for the second on Monday or Tuesday. Since I have today off for the MLK holiday, I figured I would go in on Tuesday since the RE is within walking distance of my work. But yesterday Jeramy and I sat around making up all sorts of excuses as to why I should waste the gas and drive into Seattle today. So there you have it.
In any case the news is good as the second beta came in at 670. I ran the numbers online to see how they stacked up and got the following chart. I'm running a little above singleton levels, but I'm 99% sure there is just one in there as only 1 follicle was within range when they gave me the trigger shot. If memory serves, the next nearest was around 13mm or so.
Next up is more waiting. I scheduled the ultrasound for February 12th. I'll be 7 weeks by then and hopefully we'll see a heartbeat then. I have no idea how I am going to get through the next 3 weeks. But I think it will involve much knitting and a ban on google searches. Seriously...nothing good ever comes out of Dr. Google.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Despite it being the weekend I managed to get an appointment for a blood draw. Less than 2 hours later the nurse called. She asked how I was doing, and I said "good". Then she said that my day was about to get even better. She told me how they like to see a first beta of 50. She tells me mine is 210. With tears streaming down my face I go to the other room to give Jeramy the good news.
Yes it is early. I'll be on pins and needles until the next beta on Tuesday. I'm crazy happy and completely scared at the same time. But I am trying to listen to the advice my grandmother gave me on the phone this afternoon to take this good news and run with it. To block out the bad and don't let it invade on my happiness.
I owe so much to my family and friends who have supported me through this. However I have to especially thank the women I have met on line who have supported me from the time I had just began this year-long journey. Because of them I got help for those 60 day long cycles early. They listened and supported me through my difficulties even though they had gone through so much more for me. When the information I received from my RE on the cysts didn't quite add up, they urged me to push back. Nancy, Katie, Tammy, Kel, Mon, Jenn and Jewels and all the other blogging gals, I owe you so much and hope your journeys will end very, very soon.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
This morning I woke up, groggily dragged myself out of bed, and went to the bathroom. Just after I finished I realized that I was supposed to pee in a cup not the toilet. Crap. So my plans to test this morning went out the window. But there is always tomorrow I guess. Perhaps I should place a pee up on the toilet seat lid lest I am less than alert tomorrow morning as well.
So the bottom line is that there is no news to share. Maybe tomorrow folks.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
My favorite pattern was the Henley Perfected. It has such a nice mixture of casual and girlishness.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Shopping. And lots of it as I had birthday money to blow and the sales were awesome! At Target I got new shoes and a new white shirt since I stained mine at the party last weekend. Oops! Alcohol, punch and white shirts don't mix. At Victoria Secret I bought new bras and underwear. At Bath and Body Works I got yummy smelling lotions and shower gel. At Ann Taylor I bought a skirt, cardigan, a hoodie sweater and a couple shirts. At Bass I bought new brown knee high boots and a couple necklaces. Phew!
Dinner out. Dad took us to Applebees Friday night for my birthday.
Football. We had friends over for the Seahawks game. While the first 4 minutes went well, it was pretty much downhill after that.
Babysitting. During the football game we watched our friends' 1.5 month old baby girl while they had tattoo appointments. So cute and quiet. I mean eating, pooping, sleeping and flailing of the arms is apparently about all that goes on at that age. I was a little nervous when we agreed to it as I've got very little small baby experience. But then I realized Stacy would be over for the football game so a mom would be on hand to help. (Thanks Stace!!!)
Knitting. Look, I finally turned the heel on my first sock! Jeramy calls it the sock with a hole in it. I hope to rectify that soon.
Meanwhile, Cujo kept busy in his own way this weekend., as he spent the bulk of it like this:
Nothing new on the baby-making front as I'm 8 days post-IUI. I'm feeling kind of blah and not too hopeful about it right now. But that is likely to change once I commence the POAS frenzy on Wednesday.
Friday, January 11, 2008
When we first bought our house six years ago, we knew it would be at least a few years before we started trying for kids. We could barely afford to support ourselves and pay the mortgage, so adding a third human being to the mix did not seem like a good idea. Our house has three bedrooms as well as a bonus room. So when we first moved in we had our bedroom, my office, his office and a pool table room that you could refer to as "man land". A couple years ago, we sold the pool table to a friend (thereby dismantling "man land") and moved Jeramy's office into the bonus room so that we could free up one bedroom for that future baby. We figured the room could temporarily house the spare bed for the guests we rarely host along with a pile of junk. Temporarily. 2 years later (just 1 of those trying for kids) it is all still there.
To me, this room is just a sad reminder of what is not in it. In many ways it is just easier to close its door and try to forget its existence in my home. I wouldn't dare make it a true spare room. Doing that would signal that I'd given up hope, which is not the case. But I also don't dare start turning it into that future baby's room for fear of jinxing the whole thing. So the room continues to sit full of junk yet empty.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
I do have to admit that one of the bonuses of my birthday was that it made us clean up our house. We have a few rooms that get little usage and instead act as a magnet for junk we don't want to throw out but don't want to organize either. As a kid my parents would throw a party for their friends about once a year, and that was the only event that ever triggered our cleaning the house. When my sister and I were teenagers, they would go out of town and leave us a substantial sum of money for food. We'd buy beer with it, clean the house and throw a party. They knew what we were going to do, but we never articulated it in advance. They were always just happy that we cleaned up the house.
I swore that I'd never fall into such habits as an adult. But obviously I've failed.
Monday, January 7, 2008
I thought that at 30, I would have 2 young kids, an amazing career, and a stay-at-home dad husband. But it took us longer than we expected to feel "ready" to have children. Then we put it off another couple of years so that I could get my master's degree. And then we spent the last year trying. Oh and the idea that Jeramy would be a stay at home dad was pure craziness. It turns out that construction workers can make as much or even more money than individuals with advanced college degrees. I do have a good career though. Amazing might be too extreme an adjective. But I've come to learn that I don't really want to be defined by my career, so perhaps this is less important to me now than it was even just a year ago.
It is just so interesting how our perspective changes so much with time. In so many ways life has gone exactly how I planned it. But then again in some ways it hasn't. But of course, if I've learned anything during my tenure as a 29 year-old it is that not everything in life goes as planned.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Anyhow if I can just come out of my post-party foggy state, I'll be in a much better place.
Friday, January 4, 2008
- Lining: 7.2mm (They told me this is on the lighter side but adequate. Any thoughts on this?)
- Right Side: a few follies with the largest being 21.5mm
- Left Side: one follie of 13mm
Oh and here is a pic of what I'll be wearing during the game. Our good friends gave me my birthday present early so I'd have it for the playoffs. I'm loving it as I am all about having the pink version of everything...I even have a pink fishing vest.